i’ve been waiting for inspiration for my goodbye post
a poetic way to let you all know how much it’s meant to me, how i picked up the habit of checking my reader faster than maybe any other habit ever, how i smiled harder at your comments than probably anything else this school year (at least since being unable to hang out with people)
how this was maybe the only replacement, because it was a community in and of itself.
but i’ve also been having a hard time keeping up with the blogs because my app somehow deleted itself.
i think my dad is judging me for sitting here trying to catch up on blogs all day long, but i don’t care.
I finally asked all my teachers for my letters of recommendations, and I’m done with everything that’s due today. the term is nearly over. I’m so close. Just 2 tests left, and they’re not due yet. so I’m rewarding myself with something that actually feels relevant right now. Matters to me.
I have three weeks to write the rest of my college essays, I think I can afford an afternoon off to read blogs and work on my white elephant gift (coming soon–hopefully lol)
So I still haven’t found the words to explain.
I’ll just let you all know: i’ve been so incredibly happy for every comment and like, it’s ridiculous. Every time i see someone’s mentioned my music taste, I die a little in a good way. I’m so happy to share music!! None of my friends or siblings at home really share my taste haha.
I’m so glad I’m taking Creative Writing 2, but I know I’ll truly miss the blogs. And I hope we’ll continue, but at the same time I’ve already written it off a little bit in the hopes of being practical (that’s what i do sometimes… it’s what almost made me not apply to the 2 colleges i asked for recommendation letters for today…)
I mean, you can see what’s already happened after the reveals.
But I really do hope/wish that some of us could be friends in real life, too! It’s hard because of COVID. But I’m hoping, sometime, maybe, my parents will decide that i can hang out with people with masks on because it’s the same risk as school (probably less… anyway i asked like a week ago and i don’t think they’ve decided??)
So, if you’re still here, you’re a real one, and if you ever wanna be friends or want a music recommendation or if you need homework help (lol but i’ll go for any human interaction, i can do my best and i’ve taken most classes except AP Lit and any language but Spanish), here’s my number: 801-717-7608
Currently listening to (it's way too much but that's alright):
Time, CHANGE, READY, and "Put It All on Me" by Ella Mai
"Juke Jam" and "No Problem" Chance the Rapper
"What It Is" KYLE, Chris Brown
"Go Crazy", "Heat", "No Guidance", "Juice" Chris Brown
"Bouncin"- Kiana Lede
"Missin You Crazy" Russ
"ATM" J. Cole
"Come Thru" Summer Walker, Usher
"3005", "I. The Worst Guys", "III. Telegraph Ave. (Oakland)", "IV. Sweatpants" Childish Gambino (I love rapping the verses ngl)
"i miss the old u", "do re mi", "hot girl bummer" blackbear
"Bonfire" Childish Gambino
"MIDDLE CHILD", "Deja Vu", "Neighbors", "4 Your Eyez Only", "Apparently" J. Cole
chill r&b (also cleaner):
"Take You Back" Russ, Kehlani
"Morning" Marc E. Bassy
"Made Love First" Marc E. Bassy, Kehlani
"17", "Body Ain't Me", and "Coke and Henny" Pink Sweat$
"Always Forever" Bryson Tiller
"Get You", "Japanese Denim" Daniel Caesar
"Redbone", "Sober", "Pop Thieves" Childish Gambino
"EX" Kiana Lede